alright i admit it. sometimes i just cry for no apparent reason. perhaps at that moment i felt as though the whole world came crashing in onto my feet and felt as though there was this emotional burden that made me have a breakdown and well make me just, cry.

the night when you feel as though you can't relate to anybody at all or perhaps you're just in bed with no clue whatsoever on what to do. what's the next step to take in your life? what in the world am i here for? why is this constant burden around my shoulders?

or perhaps more concrete questions and emotional burden that just keeps on coming that never seems to stop. perhaps the feel to please everybody at your doorstep, to be sensitive to everyone around you so you won't be hated.
questions to ponder and yet into this questioning air when no one can answer.

it sucks doesn't it, the feeling of no progress.

and it usually happens during the night, when we reflect on who we are, what we have done and sometimes for me, have i been too much?

but when i just can't take it anymore and just cry, i feel as though something had changed. probably for the better thinking that hey, even though my heart constantly freaks out and thunders everyday, i still have to continue living cause there's still something out there i haven't fufill and even though i'm afraid, i have to cover my quivering fear and step out into the light.

cause that's just everybody.

people living for everybody, sure some of us may be self-centered selfish freaks at times, but sometimes we just have to be to keep on living as we are and not to live for somebody else cause then we won't be living for people but just ourselves cause we're just wanting to please and nothing else.

it takes me sometimes to understand my brain that makes me miss a bus stop at times. (don't ask, it actually happens.) but when i do, i'm glad(as in understanding my brain, not missing a bus stop), cause then i understand myself and others better and that way from there, i can help them in anyway i can or i possibly could.

love and affections is great for everyone.

i know my hand can only reach out to a certain length,
but only that much i can do,
for then i'll do my best.